Moments Like This

Everybody has probably been through this, making the same mistake over and over. You don't want to, and you try not to but yet it's like a curse. Never-ending.

Well folks, I'm going through that horrible, nightmare of a cycle. Trying to be conscience so I don't keep repeating the same mistake but yet, I become a bumbling idiot and can't seem to think before I speak.

The saying of "if you want something you never had, you have to do something you've never done before", I wonder how true that is. Life is short, not to take risks but what if all the previous times you've taken that risk has failed? Of course, one would be scared to take another risk like that again.

I've decided to leave it to fate. If it's meant to happen, and it's in my destiny (life story) then I'm sure it'll find a way of working out. Otherwise, it was not meant for me. Learning to let go of wanting to control everything and know the outcomes before hand. Learning not to worry and stress out over something that might not be meant for me. Learning to realize, to just let life do it's thing and to go with the flow.

Yes, I would be very disappointed and sad if I found out this isn't meant for me and it can't be (for whatever reasons). But I have to accept the fact and knowledge of; if it doesn't work out then there will be something better. Always got to keep a positive and open mindset.

Just Be You

Strive, Persist and Try

"Nothing worth having comes easy "

Don't be afraid to work hard for what you want. Sometimes the results won't show right away and it'll manifest into something greater later on.
Never stop trying, just because you get a no, doesn't mean it's a defeat. It's life telling you, " try again".
If you want it bad enough, keep knocking on that door.
Persistent goes a long way.

"You need rain to get the rainbow "

No matter how many times life knocks you down, get back up. The more you do it, the easier it gets. Life will always be full of ups and downs. It will throw lemons at you, so you can keep making lemonade or make a lemon meringue pie, lemon tart, lemon cheesecake and so forth.
Life, isn't easy, so enjoy the good times, cherish the moments and create lasting memories. Life isn't about the destination but about the journey. Opportunities are not handed to you, you got to go find it or create it.

Sorry, if this post is full of static sentences. It's just thoughts and lessons I wanted to share. I know there are tons of people out there feeling defeated, depressed, unmotivated or inadequate.
Nobody can force you to feel better. Nobody can make you feel better. Fight to see the better days. You have to choose to feel better. Don't let anybody make you feel or think you're inadequate. You are not less then anybody else, you are more then good enough and have the potential to achieve all your dreams. But it starts with you.
In every negative or bad situation there is a positive side to it. It's you're choice to find it and see it or not to. No matter how bad it may appear, there is good that'll come out from it. Sometimes it's a lesson that you needed to learn. Sometimes it's a gateway to meet people that you need in your life. Or its life's way of telling you, "this is not for you". Find the positive. I guarantee there always is.

To anybody that's having a bad day or bad luck. Keep your chin up. Hold your head up high. The toughest battles are given to the strongest soldiers. Don't be ashamed of your emotional scars, be proud, for they're your battle scars. Everything that happens in your life is either a lesson you can pass on to another or a cherished memory you'll keep with you forever or a story you can tell to inspire and give hope to others.

Just Be You.

Goals Will Be Achieved!

Yippie!! Received some good news!
The waiting game is officially over! I got the job.
I was looking for something to replace my current part time job at Rogers Arena. Like I mentioned in a previous post, somewhere where I can get more hours. And I have found it.
It was also with a heavy heart I had to resign from Rogers Arena.
*But if there is anybody out there looking for a part time job to work around a busy schedule (if you're a student or work full time already) then Rogers Arena is perfect. Shifts are scattered throughout the month, so it's very flexible and workable.

There will be a lot of people I am going to miss. Of course J* is going to be one of the top 5 people I will miss dearly. It's sad to think I won't ever see him again, well at least not at the arena. I was looking forward to the start of next season, for the reason of seeing him again. But I am sure, we will run into each other elsewhere, outside of the arena.
But as of right now, I have to so what I have to do, to reach my goal by March 2017. It's very exciting to think that in just 7-8 months, I will be purchasing my first place. And become a first time home buyer!!!!!!

I look back on my life, and look at where I was once to where I am today. Life may threw a lot of obstacles along my way, but as I was getting older, I became stronger and more determined.
I used to be the type of person who gave up easily, if things were getting too hard or too difficult.
And the one BIG lesson I have learned is, never give up. Even if one door closes, or you get repetitive "No's", got to keep going, and keep trying. Life doesn't reward people who sit back and do nothing, life rewards people who try and work hard.

Failure is just a stepping stone to success. You have to know how to fail to be able to do better the next time around.
And you don't need to do what other people want you to do. You don't need to go down the same path as everybody else, because it's safe.
You can create your own path, and stray from the pack. But remember, if you're going to do that, just know it will be a tougher journey, with way more obstacles and struggles. And you have to believe in yourself and your abilities. Then, the reward will be that much greater.

And to all, who are going through their own life journey, never compare your life to another, it'll only make you unhappy. And never forget to be thankful for what you do have and not complain about what you don't have.

Just Be You!

The Waiting Game

Does anybody else hate the "waiting game"?
I hate waiting around for the phone call. I feel so unproductive just sitting and waiting by the phone.
I don't want to have my hopes up and EXPECT a phone call. But then at the same time, I don't want to think negatively and have doubts.
I mean, I am confident I did well, and it went well. At least from my perspective....
The waiting game, starts to just add stress on top of stress. The unknown, the unanswered, and the anticipation for the result/outcome.

All my hard work, and all of my sacrifices... please tell me it's all going to be rewarded.

Anybody else feeling the gloominess of the weather lately?
It's supposed to be July, where has our summer weather disappeared to?
One day, it's sunny and super hot. The next day, it's cold, windy and raining hard.
In some ways that's just like life. You'll have the good days, that'll put a smile on your face and give you fond memories to look back on in the future. And you'll have bad days, the ones you don't want to ever relive, or remember and wish to erase it from your memories.

*****************************HOCKEY NEWS***********************************
Many of you may already know this. But the Florida Panthers, recently signed Reimer, goaltender from San Jose Sharks, before that played on Toronto Maple Leafs. And the reason why they signed a goalie, is because apparently, Roberto Luongo got injured during the end of the last season and has to get surgery. He'll be missing at least the first half of the next season. (Yes, it saddens me to know that, Roberto Luongo will be absent from Panthers games until at least Jan 2017/)
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Anybody else, going through some stress in their life? Either to do with love life, work life, or in general?
Hang in there soldiers, I'm in the same boat as you. And we'll surely get through this rocky storm as long as we don't give up and keep on moving forward.

Just Be You!

Resilient and Determined

It's crazy how time flies by so quickly.
I look back at all that has happened in my life and all that I had to face and conquer.
I also start to think about all the people I have met and remembering those moments or memories made.
I don't have a single regret. I truly believe everything happens for a reason. I also follow the motto "live you're life with more oh wells then what ifs"
Never be afraid to go after what you want. Don't ever doubt yourself and your abilities.
I honestly don't have a single "what if" in my life. Because I was never once afraid to try, knock on opportunity, or just go after what I want with all my determination. Some I have succeeded in achieving/obtaining but I have also failed or been turned down. But the point is at least I tried. If I never tried I would have never gotten the answer.
I always keep a positive mindset. Even when something shitty happens I try to look at the positive side of things. If there isn't at that moment then I tell myself 'you'll see the positive out of this negative situation soon enough '. And surely I do.
I used to have so many doubts about myself and fears for the future. Of the unknown.
I learned to know my strengths and weaknesses. And to strengthen my weaknesses and make my strengths even stronger. I learned to accept that I'm not perfect and there is no point in trying to achieve the unachievable . We are all imperfect but perfect as an individual.
I never tried to be like anybody else. I have always wanted to do things my way. Even if it may seem like a difficult route or impossible route, I preferred to go to the beat of my own drums. I didn't want to do what everybody else was doing. Go down that same path. Even though it's a 80% guarantee to success.
I wanted to do it my way. My way may have had a lot of obstacles and hardships but I wouldn't change it. I wouldn't go back in time and do things differently. Because I got to where I wanted to be. And achieving goals I set for myself. And I learned so much and grew so much as a person from going through those obstacles and hardships.

Never be afraid to do it your way. Never doubt your abilities and how much you are capable of doing.
A wise and good friend has once told me "You're on the cool train to successfulville" years ago. It has never once left my thoughts. I used it everyday to motivate me to keep going and to never give up.
Just believe in yourself and the process. Somethings takes longer to be achieved then others. If one door closed, knock on another and another. Until one finally opens.
Stressed at times and emotionally draining but none of that will never stop me from trying again and again. Giving up isn't a vocabulary in my dictionary. Can't isn't a word that applies to me.
And no matter who tries to knock me down and bully me to quit or give up. I will never let anybody knock me down or bully me to get me to do what they want.
Be strong and resilient. Like a mountain, can not be moved.

I hope this post inspires anybody out there who are having any doubts, fears or just feeling of giving up. Hang in there and just try again!

Just Be You!

Boo-Yah!!

Yippie!!
I finished my medical terminology course and obtained my certificate!!  The opportunities are endless now!
I know, you gotta go through the struggles to reach your end goal. But, it's just, in the moment of the struggles, everything seems so dim and so far in reach.
I will never let anybody knock me down, or push me down. I'm strong and steady like a mountain and can not be moved.

*Breaking news in the hockey world!
You guys probably have already heard of the recent trades that has happened.
Shea Weber for PK Subban?!
Is Nashville Predators crazy?!?!?! Shea Weber is so valuable! Not saying PK Subban isn't, but I mean come on, it's SHEA freaking WEBER!!
Oilers traded off Taylor Hall to New Jersey Devils, meh, no surprise. He's alright player.
Steven Stamkos has resigned with Tampa Bay Lightnings for 8 more years.... I was kind of hoping Canucks would have tried to snatch him up.. Oh well.. He belongs on Tampa, that is his team.
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That's kind of it for now, I'll keep you guys posted on more!.. There will be more to come!

Just Be You

Struggles

Everybody has a story, and there's always a part of everybody's story that remains untold, even to family and close friends/lovers.

Even though, that untold part of the story is embarrassing or regretful or painful memory, it's what ultimately shaped that person into who they are today. The struggles they faced, the ones they conquered and failed at, the moments they broke apart, the times they gave up, the hard moments in life and how they overcame it or how they dealt it is a reflection of them as a person.

I think about all I have been through in my life until this very moment. The times I failed, the times I gave up or wished to give up, the moments I broke down, and all the times I got back up and kept moving forward. Some stories I have shared with people, but there's some stories that hasn't been told , mostly because I don't even know how to put it into words.

Misunderstood at times, liked by some, disliked by some but hate no one.

Where am I going with this blog post? I'm not too sure myself, honestly. It's just one of those days where I feel defeated and wishing it was a possibility to give up. But I can't. I came too far, overcame so much to just give up now. (Thank goodness for the upcoming long weekend, I've been waiting for it)

To all the people out there who are facing some life's lemons and struggling in any way,  hang in there, because at the end of every rainfall is a rainbow.

Just Be You!